I’m not sure where to begin…

When I was younger I used to watch all the girls I danced with struggle and battle their weight. I was never like that. I have always had fat kid tendencies and could never understand why they were thinking in that manner.

over the last 6 months I’ve been battling my weight and now I’m in a situation I don’t know how to handle really, I’m just thankful that I’m recognising it.

I dropped from a size uk 10 to a uk 4 and I’m still getting smaller. The problem wasn’t losing the weight.

The problem is for example last week I gained 2 pounds and felt physically and emotionally fat. This week I lost 3 pounds now what happens when I gain that 1 pound I lost will I feel bigger? It’s actually a dirty cycle and I was in this mind frame before I actually had time to realise.

I eat right. I have begun to drink water and squash completely cut out the red bull (drinking it excessively for years) And I exercise.

So after cutting out the red bull and stopping exercising for a while the weight loss is still occuring and I’m so afraid to gain weight.

The thought of gaining weight makes me ill.

I want to stop this silly behaviour before it gets too far.

Sb.