Dear Tumblr…

Not sure when I last wrote? Come to think of it…I’m lost.

I moved to a beautiful, crazy city, where my heart meet a soul that made everything around me flutter. I lost my mind somewhere in a street near by and spiralled out of control.

The Soul: Oh my, she’s so difficult to put into words. For the best of reasons. The most beautiful brunette I’ve ever met, with the brightest ocean blue eyes. She has a figure to die for, I’m envious every time I look at her. But you see on top of that inside her she’s awesome. Smart and talented. I’ve never met someone that could captivate me the way she does. Even watching her wake up and put a shirt on to go make coffee is like the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. The way she moves in her own little way, how her sweater never matches her outfit but she still looks stunning. The fact she rarely wears make up and urgh shes just perfect in my eyes.

Sadly we have one difference, I’d give her everything and I wanted a 50/50 relationship.

She wasn’t out until this last week when it happened after we fought. I’m madly in love with this woman and I would do nothing more than to hold her while I sleep. Smell her perfume on my tshirt after shes hugged me. to feel the wrinkles of her lips as she kisses mine.

so I’m gonna write to her: Here:

Dear Ace,

I don’t ever want to change anything we did, everything we did was immense in large capacities. I look at you and my heart still beats double, I still get butterflies when you hold my hand and you know you’re the only person who can hold my wrist and take all the bad away.

I’m not ready for us to be over, because we aren’t over yet. I love you and I’m doing everything in my power to make it right. I know you still love me and I know we are both upset at each other but that upset is nothing compared to what we have.

It’s worth a shot it’s worth that love.

Say you’ll hold me even for one last time. come lay with me and disappear into one anothers eyes. let me touch you.

Don’t run from what is real. I’ve heard so much crap these last few days I don’t know what is what. But I know our love regardless of everything else and everyone else is real.

this relationship is you and it’s me.

so we owe it to try: I’ve cleared my head and I’ve cried more than I have ever done before. I’ve been supported and I’ve done what you asked of me. I hope you would do the same.

Think of what we have and think of all we have done. Remember why we were together in the first place.

I want to meet you on monday night, I have something for you. I’ll even come to you. I know you have work but it wont take long. Just say you’ll meet me.

Do this for us. Forget my family and your family just for one second.

I love you Ace.

Yours always Snowflake.

Say you’ll be mine….I’ll always be yours.